the beggining of a new world

so today voting was held....it was hectic and still is since they havent announced who is our new president....i hope obama wins and from what i can see he is winning....but....who knows who it'll be? something might happen that Mccain wins or obama wins:) no idea

um...updates on music....wonder girls are doing a reality series on Mnet called "wonder bakery" very excited to seem them a another reality series..we had mtv wg season 1, 2 and 3...then self camera episodes on Mnet...there might be more but i dont remember....sunye has to be haapy because she gets to cook and yeeun has to be haapy because she is surrounded by food!! haha some fans cal her hungry hippo..not to be mean but cuz she is always eating..and she weighs about 100 pounds or something like that...but in korea thats  a bit big...she's the biggest wg...so imagine how small the smallest is...90llbs?...

anywho - i mentioned Big Bang hosting a concert here in the states...i am still excited!! i hope i can go so i can Mr sexy man Tae Yang:)

gotta go my back hurts and i'm sleepy

song playing: "lie" by Big Bang

mood: sleepy yet excited

~Aida

updating

hello:)

whats up? um its been a while since i even visited my own blog..sad right??? yes i know

um...tomorow is HALLOWEEN!!!boo!!!!yes yes yes..it is also my little brothers birthday..he'll be 17 tomorow.exciting we're going to see saw 5 i cant wait!!!!!!

anywho - i am geting sick:( my throat is making me mad....so i've been forced to drink some water mii dont like water, yeah its good for you and needed to survive but i avoid pure water AKA water alone...anyway i can...but i needed to drink it in order to sleep last night

ok!..i read on soompi that wonder girls are having their first concert in feb. 2009 in korea then in march or may (one of the M's) they'll host a concert in the states!!!! i is excited

then i also read that big bang ( b to the i to the bang bang!) will also host a U.S concert!!! whhhhaaaaaa!!! that's double the happiness...i doubt i'll be able to go to either but hey...i'll try

ok..i shall go now to surf the internet:) i'll be back with a new poem to add to the edition

ja ne!!!!!~

~ Aida~~!!

good day!:)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tWg9_oh5rLQ

scarlo went on a singing rant today..singing 3 asian songs..it was cute

today

seriously...it's not a good day for me
it started out early and with not so joyful news..i guess October is a bad news month..maybe due to Halloween? i don't know
so i was immediately....torn as soon as i woke up
and now that the day has ended it hasn't gotten any better
for those of you that are familiar with me, whether it be personally or threw another website or what ever the connection...those that know me well enough know the struggles i put up with daily
this post will only be understood if you REALLY know me
for the past month or two i have held back many things from people, even if i needed to let it go it never came out, it could be fear causing this but I'm not so sure
so people in my life don't know the truth behind the constant smiles or the constant randomness of mine...pretty much everyone believes I'm the normal Aida, with random phrases, laughing for no reason, speaking randomly etc...when in reality, its all just a cover up....i will not discuss the truth behind this post due to many many reasons, but if you insist on knowing ask and you may probably receive depending on who you are
i say that because i have trust issues....i don't trust everyone i know or anyone that i come in contact with...i don't really trust anyone unless they've proven to me that their trust is worth grasping
this blog was created to share my thoughts on different things, culture, music, hobbies or even politics if I'm in a good good good mood
i don't tell people much to begin with so take this as a rare post..you really wont see these often, and the next post you might say "oh she's over it now" that's just really the cover up part of how i handle things
anyways..this post is pretty much pointless since this blog doesn't get read so
peace!

~Aida

random

i cant sleep again so I’m dropping a new ost

i haven’t been keeping up with the poetry i just havent had time or have been willing to type a poem..call me lazy!

um....yesterday was my brothers 29th b-day so a happy birthday to danny!!!

not much else going on

OH! ~

i made a list of all the stories I’ve written and it’ll share them below:

NAME - PAGES - MODE - STATUS -

" lie" 7 1 st person finished

"love = pain" 9.5 1 st person finished

"long time no see" 15 1 st person finished

"change of heart" 3.5 1 st person finished

"love too many" 3 1 st person unfinished

"wasn’t meant to be" 41 1 st person finished

"behind my back" 1 1 st unfinished

" betrayal" 1 1 st unfinished

"writing is magic" 3 1 st person unfinished

"school" 1 1 st unfinished

"sudden change" 2 1 st unfinished

"fantasy/crash" 3 1 st unfinished

"no fairytale" 11 1 st unfinished

"orphan" 1 1 st unfinsihed

" lover or friend" 2 1 st unfinished

"crush" 1 all modes unfinished

"finally" 1 1 st unfinished

"til i die" 2.3 1 st unfinished

"horror" 1 1 st unfinished

"dance" 0.5 1 st finished

"happy birthday" 2.5 1 st finished

"luck or what? " 86 1 st finished

"change for love" 29.5 1 st finished

"wrongful love" 1 1 st finished

"my all" 1 all modes currently working on it

the 1 pagers are the ones that are either short short short or i just lost all ideas for and gave up..unfinished means i had writers block and forgot what i wanted it to be, they are still open for me to continue if i like but as of now my main concern is "my all" sooooo..yeah I’m stuck on that one too

the story i gave hints about was "luck or what? " but i closed it and it is now completed !!!! it was the first story i actually finished

trust me i have boxes full of stories that i gave up on so this one means alot to me

going to end this post this computer is making weird noises:)

tata~

~ Aida

more crap

do you have fears??
i sure as hell do
i fear dounts people have about me and i fear neglection (if thats even a word)
i grew up hearinf so many threats about the future, as in the way we turned out to be, and i guess i just to a point where i not only believe them all but i also fear them, for me family means more to me than i do to myself, so having them suffer or hate me or whatever will kill me
i hate lieing to them everyday but although i hate it and i know its wrong i think it's best that way, the less they know the less they hurt...i cant be the one to tear this family apart, i will not be held responisible for that sort of damage, i refuse to be the ouytcast anymore, i refuse to be the one everyone makes fun of just because i'm not like the rest of the damn worl, or made fun of because my eye is all fucked up or judged becasue of the music i listen to, or made fun of becasue i suck at talking or i'm not the smartest girl on earth, or because i have interest in learning other language and culture, i hate being that girl that people go to just because they have a fucking problem and then they remember that i do fucking listen
i now stand away from you bastards that always thought i couldnt do nothing, you bastards that never looked twice at me because i'm different than the worlds population, you bastards that made me cry in school because i was too afraid to do a fucking speech!!! to those that know how i really am know not to push my buttons, i am bi-polar and a half and on top of that i'm a rican and padilla! but those that dont know or dont care, keep at it and i swear to god i'll make you wish you treated me with respect
they say the quiet ones are the ones you gotta watch out for....i'm quiet and i dont look for shit just to occupy my time or to make myself look tough or whatever but you push the million of red buttons i got, and best believe i'll hurt you!!
that is for all the people i went ot school with for the people who left me stranded in this place you call earth...the bastards that only use me if they dont have anyone else to fucking turn to
kiss my ass and good night!

the crap

have you ever had someone that you concidered close up until you found out they want nothing to do with you?


i have and i belive i will always run into those type of people...some woman think they attrack bad guys some men say they attrack dirty girls..i say i attrack the people that cause damage as in friend wise
.......i'm not a bad person, i listen, i give support, i do all i can to do my part in a friendship even if it cost my life...with saying that i still dont understand why people turn out the way they do...i'm not perfect thats for sure but i'm not mean, now dont get me wrong you push the wrong buttons and you'll whitness adifferent side of me but that rarely happens since i bottle everything up inside....but when someone makes a mistake i forgive them dont you?...if you murder someone then your screwed cuz i want no part of your life
but say you prank call someone and they find out its you and they get all pissed off with you, cut you off 100%..is that fair? even if you've apologized a million times and meant no harm what so ever?....if i was the "victom" i'd forgive them because i know they'll never harm me but
i dont know....people tell me all the time that i'm awesome, people tell me that i'm fun to be around or the only time they talk is if i'm the listener
why is it that she cant forgive me?